Feelings Are Not Facts

Dear Jesus,

Lately it has occurred to me that not all of my sins were forgiven at Calvary.  I feel as if You may have left a couple of mine out when You were on the cross.  I’m thinking about many but here’s one: I don’t feel as if I have been totally forgiven for abandoning my children all those years when I was drinking and drugging.  I neglected my responsibilities as their father and now my middle one is having his own battle with drugs and alcohol and thoughts of suicide.  I feel as if I need to do something, to work harder, to prove that I really am sorry for what I did.  There has to be a way for me to feel as if I didn’t fail.

So, can You do me a favor and come back and repeat that day?  I know it was the worst day of Your life on earth but can You leave Heaven again and make sure that my sin was forgiven?  I just don’t feel as if it was.  Can You go to the Cross one more time?  Thanks.

Your child,
Joe

Dear Joe,

No, I won’t be doing that day again, not because I don’t love you or that I don’t care that you are suffering this emotional anguish but because My crucifixion really did conquer ALL sin and death forever, past, present, and future.  My sitting on the throne at the right hand of My Father is proof that when I said, “It is finished,” it is.

It is true that there is nothing you can do.  I did it all, I paid the price, My death reconciled you to My Father.  When you asked Me into your life to become your Lord and Savior, all that you have done, are doing, and will do has been atoned for.  You received a new past, a beautiful present, and a glorious future.  Though you may not feel it, remember that feelings are not facts.  It was only through the love of My Father that you are truly forgiven.  One and done.  You need to accept your acceptance, and your acceptance is based on what I did at the Cross.  You could never do anything that would duplicate what happened that day.  So you may regret the path you took to get to Me, and I know that if you could change what you did, especially abandoning your children, you would.  My death, burial, and resurrection have taken care of ALL your sins.

Check out John 3:3, John 3:16-17, John 5:24, and II Cor. 5:17.  These verses will help you in the areas of your salvation, assurance, and security.  II Cor. 5:21 will help you to know that through My death, burial, and resurrection, you are accepted 100%.

I love you,
Jesus

Many of us who come from a background of drugs and alcohol abuse, poor choices, and selfish decisions don’t feel forgiven.  God is not interested in how we feel but rather that we accept and trust what Jesus did for us that day at Calvary.  He paid the price in full because we never could.  Our Father loved us so much that He gave us Jesus, who did the will of the Father.  As the result of His obedience and His actions, we are set free from sin and death in spite of how we feel.

Trust, obey, and have faith that the past is what you did and not who you are.  Because of, and only because of the Cross, we are forgiven.

Father, thank you for the opportunity, through the crucifixion of Your Son, my Savior Jesus, to become a member of Your family, and that it is not from human acceptance or people pleasing that I am free from the penalty of sin and death.  Thank you, Jesus, for paying my sin debt in full that day on the Cross at Calvary.  I love You and my life is Yours.

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One thought on “Feelings Are Not Facts

  1. Joe, I have been feeling the same way about my children…I often backslide and believe that I still am not forgiven for having an affair during my first marriage and that my second son lived only 5 days because of my sins. My first son was sexually abused and has cut me off completely because he blames me. I torture myself often about Jesus’ forgiveness for me. I often say too myself that I know intellectually that Jesus died for me and I am forgiven through his graces, but emotionally, my feelings, often get me down and I wonder HOW could Jesus forgive me for all the unhealthy choices I have made throughout my life. Fortunately I have someone in my life who supports me through grace and reminds me that Jesus died for ME and has forgiven me totally. I do not have to be forgiven over and over again, or feel as if I am not forgiven, or have a need to go back and relive those days and be forgiven again. I know exactly what you’re talking about.

    Thank you for sharing these struggles of yours with us. I often testify about faith and how it has changed my life, I have been blessed with the limitless love of Jesus and what he offered up at his death for all of us. I often meditate on His pain at Gethsemane because I am in my own pain, having to do with both my physical pain and emotional pain.

    These things (pain, sorrow, choices) are part of our human experience. It helps me greatly to accept my choices. If Christ accepted his pain to His ultimate death and ultimate sacrifice to forgive us for whatever we did or have done (or will do), I find the strength to accept his grace and love. For me, he is the Way, the Truth, and the Life. I often find myself living in a state of gratitude, most of all for His forgiveness and for all he has given me in this lifetime. When things seem awful, I stop and remind myself that THIS LIFE IS BUT THE BLINK OF AN EYE in the face of eternity. Then I blink. Our life here is that tiny in the face of eternity. How can I not live a life without His love and forgiveness? And how can I not share my faith when I have the opportunity? It’s so simple, yet oftentimes so difficult, and I remind myself ot only feelings and not facts, but that I am forgiven for everything, and ruminating about the past pulls me down. I then think of Jesus and what a gift He has given us…that of eternal salvation. I thank God, and I thank you and Cherri who have come from a place of darkness into the light that Christ intended for you to live in, and you have lived it well, and are truly forgiven, Joe. This, I know.

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